人の大きな声にイライラする。イライラさせるなら、話しかけてほしくない。昔、親が即答を求めたときに感じたのと同じ。脳に考える時間を与えることができず、「ちょっとだまってくれへんか」と思う。ずっと、静かでありたい。耳元でキャンキャン吠えないでほしい。
いくつかの感情の種類は、昔のものと同じで、そのころすでに何かが狂っていたことが繰返し証明される。ただ、今となっては抵抗する感情を「爆発」させることもできない。爆発は何倍も大きく、しかも内部爆発になるだろうから。
Doctor, thank you so much. In so many senses, you have been so so so nice to me. Maybe so much nicer than you think you have been. And you have saved me until now. You have been an important person to me and you are like my friend with whom I can be very honest. I should have talked to you directly and I wanted to do so. I had no energy to go out over to your office. Now I’m regretting not seeing you tonight. Whatever happens to me, I will be forever grateful for your help. Doctor, you take very good care of yourself.
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