Pointless to Fight Now Against Prejudice/Misunderstanding. Therefore Tremendous Fear

Dr からの手紙を持って、会社に行った。発病、再発の原因、症状、うつ病全般について議論するつもりもなく、また（ある程度の誤解を含んだ）一般的な話として納得せざるを得ない復職条件だと思う……。恐怖だ。

DAY 7, 17 JULY 2000: Amnon Lipkin-Shahak, a close associate of [Ehud Barak], said,

What is Jerusalem?  Large chunks of today’s Jerusalem are not mine…  The Israeli interest is to transfer as many Palestinians as possible to the Palestinian [Authority] and to remain with as few Arabs as possible under Israeli rule.  Of course, we can’t give up sovereignty on Temple Mount.  We can’t give that to Arafat, it’s the cradle of Jewish history, but [on the other hand] we mustn’t run Al-Aqsa.  We have to find a way of giving the Palestinians a compound in the Muslim Quarter… if we don’t get form them [a declaration of] End of Conflict it would not be wise to sign an agreement.  (p. 102)

… the paper was a retreat from some of the offers that Ben-Ami and Gilead Sher had made in the back channel.  While the two had suggested Israel retained 10.5 per cent of the West Bank to preserve her large settlement blocks, Barak now said Israel must keep 11.3 per cent.  And while in the back channel the Israelis had offered the Palestinians at least three Arab suburbs in East Jerusalem, Barak offered only one village.  On almost every issue there was a retreat.

Forgetting (on purpose?) his promise that the back-channel negotiations were deniable and non-binding, [Clinton] lashed out at Barak: ‘This is not real… this is not serious.  I went to Shepherdstown [the Israeli-Syrian summit in January 2000] and was told nothing by you for four days.  I went to Geneva [to meet Assad in March 2000] and felt like a puppet doing your bidding.’… ‘I will not let it happen here.  I will simply not do it.’  Robert Malley, note-taker of the meting, recalls how the President ‘exploded… and in language that I had not heard him use with Barak before, if with anyone… he said… “You’ve made me wait here for thirteen hours, and you come back with this?  You go sell that to Arafat, if you want to.  Don’t ask me to do it. I’m not going to do that…”’  In his memoirs President Clinton confirms this conversation… when he writes, ‘It was after midnight when Barak finally came to me with proposals.  They were less than what Ben-Ami and Sher had already presented to the Palestinians.  Ehud wanted me to present them to Arafat as US proposals.  But I couldn’t do that.  It would have been a disaster, and I told him so.’  (pp. 104-105)