Feeling Certainly Happy but Also Having Mixed Feeling

Last night, I came back home rather late after work and dinner and beer, and found an MOM email, notifying me of their approval (another 12 months) of my EP renewal application
Feeling certainly happy but also  having mixed feeling.
If I'm not mistaken, I was given 24, 36 and 36 months for my first three EP applications, and the last one of last year, only 12 months. The 12-month renewal shocked me greatly, but another 12 months this time around I'm accepting much more calmly.
The only difference between this application and the previous one and two appeals for it is the montly salary which I increased by more than 50%. It makes me wonder if this government is aware of the resentment their attitude may be creating among the types if foreigners they used to welcome and now try not to accept into this country. They seemed to have segmented foreigners into several categories and in my case I may belong to the one which they least welcome. I'm not eligible for applying an "S Pass" as the company is so tiny and it has no quota for it. I wish it could because it would be so much easier.
I DO NOT AGREE WITH THIS COUNTRY'S POLICY TOWARD FOREIGNERS.

Additional Documents Submitted

Tonight (18th), I submitted the additional documents requested by MOM. I also gave them those testimonials I had got from clients though the ministry may just ignore them, along with the recent invoices and letters of intent NOT from local companies, which they didn't request me to provide.
I could have submitted the documents a day earlier if the SingPost man had come to the door to pass me a contract sent by registered mail, which certainly should be included among the documents. (I went to SingPost's Upp Thomson branch in the neighborhood to collect it and spent more than an hour to scan and convert each one of the pages today.)
My largest concern is that my company has not paid any income tax before. as shown in the corporate tax assessments submitted. But this is because of the big loss made by the predecessor IT company year after year. My own company lost money only in one financial year in its existence.
Now, I think I did all I could do and am even relaxed somehow, having sent all those pages of the documents to MOM.
If the decision by the ministry is still negative despite all of these efforts of mine, I'll really have to get ready to pack up and leave. In any case, I don't think I have much love toward this country.

Very Unhealthy State of Mind

Yesterday, I found an email from the ministry requesting me to submit additional documents. But I had no strength to log into its website to see what documents they were requesting until this afternoon. They are requesting, not surprisingly, financial documents, personal and corporate. A good sign in a sense because it shows there is still possibility. But I'm feeling really exhausted with this. This is like my business being controlled by the ministry. I need help from my accountant to prepare some of the requested documents. She didn't reply my message today. Perhaps she is on holiday... Time is running out.
I've being feeling this way almost constantly for the past two years since my Ultra C attempt, which ended up in spectacular failure. This extremely anxious feeling with shallow breathing and the heart wildly beating. Getting drunk seems the only way to ease it. H E L P.

Another, Perhaps Final, Attempt to Keep My Company Alive

Yesterday, I received yet another reply from the ministry advising me to apply for a visa renewal, not to make another appeal to the rejected application. This afternoon, with my fingers shaking and sweaty, I typed all necessary information and the ministry's website accepted my renewal application with a pay increase of more than 50%.
I almost feel humiliated as I've been saying "Please" so many times. This country used to welcome capable foreigners with its meritocracy. Now, it seems welcomed now are wealthy foreigners.
In any case, I can only wait for the result once again.